Dementia

Dementia


As a matter of fact…
I don’t know.
Did someone say to think?
Cause I don’t think I can breath straight.
I was just trying to see…
But I don’t think it’ll work.
You know…
Something just popped,
Into my brain,
Besides the crawling,
Of sideways.
I think…
That I can’t think at all,
I can’t touch the bleeding,
Of what’s flow out…
I’m tired…
But if I tried to lay down,
It won’t get done.
Shaking,
Quaking,
Contemplating…
What’s going on now?
Don’t think I have any strength,
To feel,
To kill,
Nothing seems quite real…
At the moment…
What was I going to say anyway?
Oh well.
I think my mind’s gone numb…
It could be fun,
But I don’t think,
I can think about it…
Now,
Were you about to say something?
Oh well…
Maybe I should stop,
Going into nothing now…
Falling into placid dreaming,
Of what is not going on.
It’s real…
But I can’t seem to focus,
On the moment.
My mind’s a void,
Blanketed sediment,
Cave is so dark,
Hit my head on a stalactite.
What was that noise!?
Falling down,
Can’t get up again.
Body is too heavy,
Head too heavy…
I think that hurt…
Oh…
Did pain just speak to me?
I just slipped,
Didn’t I?
Speaking is so hard to do,
When I can’t see,
What I’m not trying to do…
Did you see that!?
I think it moved,
Right through me…
Heart is pounding,
I think my head just fell off.
I could try to find it,
But it’s too light to breath clearly…
I think I just heard something scream,
It could have been me,
But my lips are sown shut,
I can taste the smell of blood…
Did murder just come?
The psycho,
Philosophical,
Pandemic constellation,
Of a case of madness?
Saintliness?
Condemnation?  
Could be…
But I don’t care really.
I saw what they were trying to do,
Dancing on their heads,
When they should have been eating them.
Hey!
Where’s my head?
Don’t you eat my head!
You looney weirdo’s!
Stop laughing at me!!
Or I’ll bash my brains in!
Then you’ll see,
Just how weak you can be,
When you’re not acting,
Like I should be…
And now I have to laugh,
Because the bodies are talking back…
Tearing out the eyes,
Ascending those bloody lies,
I did kill that smile,
Didn’t I?